double chocolate green tea frappucino

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If you know me, you know I am obsessed with Starbucks, and if you really know me, you know I am obsessed with offerings from Starbucks (and other fast food places) around the world that are not technically available in America. Usually I am too lazy/busy to gather ingredients and make things on my own but this one was so easy I had to try!

It’s a “Double Chocolate Green Tea Frappucino” and it’s technically available at Starbucks in Singapore. When I found out about it, I broke it down for a Starbucks employee on my birthday, but I don’t like asking for things that aren’t on the menu, and I used a reward to pay for it – aka I normally don’t dole out the cash for frappucinos, and I normally don’t drink them because they’re glorified milkshakes.

Anyway today I was craving this again and decided to make it myself since I had the ingredients on hand. But first, to double check if I was using the right ingredients for sure, I looked up the recipe for a green tea frappucino and came across Gemma’s Bigger Bolder Baking blog. There, she listed her ingredients for a matcha frappucino which you can view on her site (the link will take you directly to her recipe). Though, I did modify a little.

I added only one tablespoon of powdered sugar rather than three. I also added in chocolate chips since that’s what the Singapore drink calls for (though Starbucks uses java chips, actually).

I poured chocolate syrup on the bottom of the cup, and then on top of the frappucino. I don’t use sweetened matcha, and this is likely my “dessert” for the day. It’s so delicious. A nice treat, indeed.

 

I’ll be talking about this on the Coffee N Shit podcast. Stay tuned.

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Songs Taylor Loves

I know to some degree most people love music. It’s a huge part of all of our lives, but over the past few years, as I’ve gained more personal responsibility and less personal free time, music has slipped through the cracks as a hobby. With graduation on the horizon, I’ve been anticipating all of the songs I’ll hear both new and old. But when I saw Taylor Swift put up a “Songs Taylor Loves” playlist I had to check it out while doing some chores yesterday. I skipped a few songs, mainly ones that were VERY country. There are quite a few bops on here though and I definitely recommend it as a “chill playlist.”

In fact I am starting from the beginning as we speak.

It’s me, Cathy. I’ve come home

I’ve been working on my Graduate Thesis which I’ll talk about over the summer when I’ve completed it. I would rather let it speak for itself when it’s done. I heard this song finally for the first time. I’ve heard of it many times but never the song itself. I despise Cathy and Heathcliff’s relationship, but in my second reading of the book, I am remember just how sad it all is. I know many have wrote about it before me, and will after me, but have they ever compared not just Wuthering Heights and Jane Eyre, but also “The Yellow Wallpaper,” Flowers in the Attic, and My Sweet Audrina? You tell me.

In any case, I was reading some reviews of IWuthering Heights and I completely understand how polarizing it can be. But I’m enjoying reading it again and thinking critically about it and the woman who wrote it.

Enjoy Kate.

To My Friends and Family

Since I was a young teen I would read about the west coast and dream of living here… I made it my goal and worked really hard at it and here I am. I dreamed of working for a really special (specific) bookstore (but I won’t write my place of employment here) , and I made it my goal and worked really hard at it… and here I am. Since I began working at [bookstore], I made it my goal to move up and become the Level 3 of the kids department. You can guess… I worked really hard at it and here I am.
 
I have been in school since the day I got to Oregon, working on my Master’s in Literature. I have worked full time the entire time, through multiple holiday seasons and there were days where I was hanging by a thread but I made school a priority equal to work and I not only passed but I passed every semester with a 4.0 – my last semester begins in a few days and I am confident I will finish with a bang when I present my Thesis on Charlotte and Emily Bronte, Charlotte Perkins Gilman, and V.C. Andrews. 
And then in May, life will change when I graduate, and for the first time in 23 years I will be out of school and “out in the world” completely. So naturally, everyone will have questions… what do I plan to “do”? What do I plan to “be”? What do I plan to…
I plan to take a deep breath. I plan to take the summer vacation I earned all year by working full time and completing a master’s program. It’s no easy feat. I am going on a cruise with my family and my love in August. And during the summer, leading up to the cruise… I plan to take walks, read books, lay out in the sun, drink wine, read tarot cards, journal… I plan to relearn French. Real French. I plan to write my ass off because my aspiration is to be a writer…
And after seeing how hard I have worked over the past few years to achieve my goals… the blood, sweat, and tears that went into these goals… I know I can do it. I know I can write and eventually, after submitting to places, someone will pick up my writing. Someone somewhere will believe in me and see my potential. It has happened before, and it will happen again. I will write until my hands fall off from writing and typing. And then I will get robotic hands and write some more.
And then, while I rest from my hand surgery, I will travel. I plan to travel everywhere I can with my love… at first locally, then nationwide, and eventually world wide. I see myself in Japan, France, England, Hungary, … I can write from anywhere.
Will I ever become a Professor? I hope so. I hope to teach in France, and in America… but it’s not my only love or goal. I have this new job, and I’m going to be there for quite a while. And I will build my writing career over time, doing both because if I’ve proven anything to myself it’s that I thrive when I have multiple balls in the air.
Thanks for reading.

The 18 Habits of Mentally Strong People

Amy Morin’s article for Inc.com, “The 18 Habits of Mentally Strong People,” really put a few things into perspective for me so I felt like sharing it.

As every human being has at some point, I have been struggling with my self-esteem and self-worth recently. I had gotten to a really wonderful place a few years ago where I actually felt totally confident and gorgeous inside and out (which is rare and I was very grateful during that time) but somehow that confident feeling slipped away. Between moving across the country, working at a job that really made me feel small, being a full-time grad student on top of  full time work (leaving no time to myself, let alone to form very many meaningful friendships), … I could go on and on. Basically every problem that normal people have on a daily basis I was having all at once. And then things got even worse, and I was constantly afraid of life. I was afraid to disappoint my job (that had treated me terribly) so I lied about the new job I had taken. I was afraid to disappoint my family, so I didn’t tell them some of the (not-mentioned-above) things that were going on in my life. Ditto for any close friends. I closed myself off and I am still very much closed off.

But obviously, I don’t like feeling like garbage. Not because it’s the “new year,” but just because this is when everything falls, I will be taking care of a lot of things that have been piling up in my life. The reason I shared this article is because during these hard times I have literally went to the internet to look for “self-esteem tips” and the like. I am not proud of these moments. I have been spending so much time being ashamed of myself. It feels like there are two of me, always. The rational side and the side that is always behaving erratically. I hate when the latter side wins. The rational side is saying, “You’re smart, you’re beautiful, you’re deserving, you’re kind,…” The erratic side says, “BUT! BUT ! BUT!”

Ms. Morin’s list is a list of “do’s” that at various times, I have done. Sometimes even all at once. But as I went down the list yesterday, my face fell. I don’t practice any of these and that’s really sad because with practice, these are all simple and can be done. So it’s not a resolution or anything like that, but I did write down these 18 tips in my journal and plan to go back to them at any time I need a reminder.

To see what’s going on in my journal (I do a lot of art journaling and post pages there…) or just to catch up with me and what I’m reading, my instagram (bookstagram)  is also maryjanereads. See you there I hope!

2018

Hi, 2018.

I came to post about the upcoming year. I am graduating school in May, and with the gift of graduation comes a thesis. These next few months I will be reading and writing a LOT for school which is amazing because one of my goals is read for one hour a day, write for one hour a day. I haven’t decided yet how much school will factor in, but as my thesis will take precedence, it must count until May. Then I will focus on my own writing projects for the rest of the year and beyond.

We have a family vacation in August, after everything. I am so happy to have spotify to save new albums as they come out so I can listen all summer. I plan to relax outside with my pens and books and notebooks and lighten my hair and tan my skin and enjoy the vitamin D (with sunscreen, of course!)

This upcoming month will be VERY busy but I am looking forward to using the time after to enjoy life and plan for travel, more writing and reading, and finally healing.

Welcome, new year!

 

Here are the books I plan to read in 2018, but notably missing are the books I will use for research for my thesis since I have only just started preliminary research on what I will use. But the list does include my thesis books, some rereads, mostly new reads, some zines, …

 

  1. Always and Forever, Lara Jean – Jenny Han
  2. The Portrait of a Lady – Henry James
  3. Devotion – Patti Smith
  4. M Train – Patti Smith
  5. You Know Me Well – Nina Lacour and David Levithan
  6. The Extra Woman – Joanna Scutts
  7. A Semi-Definitive List of Worst Nightmares – Krystal Sutherland
  8. The Yellow Wallpaper – Charlotte Perkins Gilman
  9. Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte
  10. Wuthering Heights – Emily Bronte
  11. My Sweet Audrina – VC Andrews
  12. Flowers in the Attic – VC Andrews
  13. Brainscan #33 (zine) – Alex Wrekk
  14. Radical Nuns (zine) – Cait Olds
  15. Anyone Can Paint Their Nails Because… (zine) –  Jamie Mortara
  16. The Witch Cake – E. Dwen Douglas
  17. Beneath the Sugar Sky – Seanan McGuire
  18. The Elizas – Sara Shepard
  19. The Origins of Creativity – Edward O. Wilson
  20. ** watch this first** Empire of Storms – Sarah J Maas
  21. Tower of Dawn – Sarah J Maas
  22. Harry Potter: A Journey Through a History of Magic
  23. Her smoke rose up forever – Alice Sheldon
  24. The Secret Garden – Frances Hodgson Burnett
  25. A Little Princess – Frances Hodgson Burnett
  26. Fierce Femmes and Notorious Liars – i Cheng Thom
  27. Tash Hearts Tolstoy – Kathryn Ormsbee
  28. I believe in a thing called love – Maureen Goo
  29. Pisces – Melissa Broder
  30. Leah on the offbeat – Becky Albertalli
  31. Catwoman: Soul Stealer – Sarah J Maas
  32. A Court of Frost and Starlight – Sarah J Maas
  33. Feeling Good – David Burns
  34. The Immortalists – Chloe Benjamin
  35. So You Want to Talk About Race –  Ijeoma Oluo
  36. Feel Free: Essays – Zadie Smith
  37. Not That Bad: Dispatches from Rape Culture – Roxanne Gay
  38. Diversifying Diplomacy: My Journey from Roxbury to Dakar –  Harriet L. Elam-Thomas
  39. Grass Roots: The Rise and Fall of Marijuana in America – Emily Dufton
  40. A Darker Shade of Magic – VE Schwab
  41. Exit, Pursued by a Bear – EK Johnston
  42. The Hate You Give – Angie Thomas
  43. Americanah – Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
  44. Chocolates for Breakfast – Pamela Moore
  45. Tender is the Night – F. Scott Fitzgerald
  46. Jazz – Toni Morrison
  47. Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe – Benjamin Alire Saenz
  48. Still Life with Tornado – AS King
  49. Sunday’s on the phone to Monday – Christine Reilly
  50. The Feminine Mystique  Betty Friedan
  51. Bonjour Tristesse – Francoise Sagan
  52. Down and Out in Paris and London – George Orwell
  53. Zelda – Nancy Milford
  54. More Happy than Not – Adam Silvera
  55. Furthermore – Tahereh Mafi
  56. Half of a Yellow Sun – Adichie
  57. Labyrinth Lost – Zoraida Cordova
  58. Rebecca – Daphne Du Maurier
  59. I’d die for you – F. Scott Fitzgerald
  60. Middlesex – Jeffrey Eugenides
  61. I’ll give you the sun – Jandi Nelson
  62. Frida: A Biography Of Frida Kahlo- Herrera
  63. The Beautiful and the Damned – F. SCott Fitzgerald
  64. My Brilliant Friend – Elena Ferrante
  65. Nights at the Circus –  Angela Carter
  66. Palace of Desire – Naguib Mahfouz
  67. Frankenstein – Mary Shelley
  68. Romantic Outlaws – Charlotte Gordon
  69. Eureka by Poe (short story below)
  70. A Christmas Carol – Charles Dickens
  71. Althea and Oliver – Christina Moracho
  72. Homegoing – Yaa Gyasi